i absolutely canNOT use Elizabeth. here's the dilemma, ie; bummer about NOT using it;
1) it was my birth middle name
2) it was my adopted middle name (no, they didn't know it had been birth mn)
3) my Beloved birthmom (mami')'s mn was Elizabeth!
4) my Beloved birthsister's FIRST name is Elizabeth :)
5) in my adoptive fam, my mother's aunt Elizabeth was the "matriarch" of the fam,
ie; i am named for her.
6) my step-cousin's first name is Elizabeth
7) my former "sis-in-law"'s first name is Elizabeth
8) i was born at St. Elizabeth's Hospital in Brighton/Boston.
9) i have soooo many friends who's mn's are Elizabeth!
10) i am quite certain there are other Elizabeth names in my adoptive fam,
perhaps mom will show me that currayzee "fam tree" she did some yrs ago.
what a quandry!! conundrin? not sure bout THAT being correct. alas, what to do?
THEN! wanting a tribute to mami's first name; Joan-Marie, i found Shivon, a Gaelic form that relates to! amazingly; Joan, John, Jane, Jo and Jeanne! that tribute would include;
1) mami's first name = JOAN
2) Beloved adopted dad's first name (he went by J. Lyell tho) = JOHN
3. adopted mom's name = (Mary) JANE
4) my fave uncle, who died young, Joe = JO
4) my adopted sister (who hates me)'s name = JEANNE
how can i ignore THAT coincidence??? so Shivon is def in. that works THAT issue out, easy, awes.
i have a theory on Elizabeth. have tried ev single spin-off, nothing works for me...came up with Elixia. it is an extremely unusual name, has several meanings, not to mention i can basically pick my spelling, this IS america afterall! if i throw a "Z" in there, perhaps; Elixzya, or some such similar, that would suffice. i have come to the conclusion that THAT is the "E" name i will use. Elixza....hmm... maybe...
my Beloved first name, Jiinxsay, ie; jinx, in Latin means GOODLUCK CHARM, NOT bad luck! and Elixia means "elixir" you know, something that makes you feel good/better, ie; God, me, sunshine, oceans, sunsets, etc. may seem silly to some.
i have only God and myself to please here. the tribute to Fam members is all my idea,
i'm sure they won't even care/acknowledge it....again, only God & me matter<3
unfortunately i don't "get" to please my birthmom "Mami'", as she passed away April 5, 2007 :(
but i WILL pay my tribute to HER +
you see, this whole thing has me going back&forth!....
so; Jiinxsay Lee Shivon (for DAD's initials JLS), STILL trying to come up with a million mn's-(middle names) to have JLS on new birth certif/name change record. NO, my last name will NOT start with "S", like ours. that era is OVA. the name Sanders died October 7, 1998 with the passing of my Beloved dad, Prof. J. Lyell Sanders +
thanks to my wonderful FB friend Kae Whild, i FOUND my perfect last name :) so in the middle of Jiinxsay Lee Whild, we have like 9-14 potential mn's!!! how to narrow it down? what to do? will HAVE to go back to "nameberry" and "babyhold" forums to get my gurls' input! Jiinxsay Lee Shivon is a good starting point tho. i am 100% committed to having beloved dad's initials :) JLS, my fav initials on the planet, should def have them inked on me! will talk about "tattoo for dad" later.....
have sooo many fantasy tat's related to beloved dad, can't use them tho, cuz i know on ME, it would look sleazy :( other gurls, esp; suicide gurls, look great with all of them, but i just can't do it. i have my angel wings on my back :)
"Angel" being another name i want on my long list of namiiez :)
guess i should just POST this! was looking for specific stencil tattoo that i want, can't find :(
merry monday :)
there it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wannit, will put dad's initials under heart, between wings :)
don't know WHERE on ME to ink it :O
to fill my wings in, all the way to this degree :)
not for my hipbone, just LOVE the stencil pencil type tats :)
most precious angel tat!
wOw, i'm missing a TON of tat pics :( i may not have transferred all my fave tat folders from the big laptop, but i KNO i have em up on FB. if i EVER get the patience to go there, i'll re-copy them. i believe i'm going to make a special 3rd page on my Blogger, with pics of lovely tats i want or otherwise Love :)
peace&Love, gtg for now....tired.
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