just a reg checkup. dr said he would schedule mag-3 for around 3 months from now....no fukn wayyyy! i am in agony NOWWWWWWWWWWWW.................so it's gonna be way sooner rather than later!! had to take extra pain pills, don't like to break rules. should be at ER to get a shot for pain. not doing that. hate doing that. short-term solution. so!
gonna call back tomorrow!!! and tell them how bad it was tonight and see if i can get in sooner! what am i gonna do? he said when he did my right kidney 2.5 yrs ago, it was "really complicated", not good :( i have endless "abherrant arteries", just googled UPJ obstruction and wish i had researched beFORE appt, to ask him if i had "crossed vessels", which makes surgery, even laporoscopic, extremely dangerous, due to possibility of "bleeding out"..........he suggested removing the left one, due to pain, life-long probs, it was congenital defect. i said, NO thx. ---heavy heavy sigh---- so i must set alarm on cel fone to call them tomorrow.
time spent with mom today was really special. glad our relationship is evolving into this :) she drove INto boston, i drove OUT, lol...too scared to do it myself...stopped at sud bank and she deposited hundreds in my account, due to meds not recently being covered by my welfare insurance. thx mom. cel fone back on. thank goodness. oh people, please PLEASE PLEASE!!! pray for me :( i am in such horrible pain, heating pad helps, narcotics not doing alot. pain is in EXACT spot it was for the first 18 yrs of my life :( also feel nauseated, result of severe pain) and my sweet Shainelle is making special dinner tonight, instant Hungry Jack tatos, peas to mix in for me :) corn for her :) i hope to high heaven i can actually EAT. may take nother pill :(((( GOD PLZ HELP ME, I AM WORTHY OF YOUR LOVE AND CARE. i know you can't remove this pain, just help me to deal, or get into my web designing mode, to get my mind off it :) it's a hobby that i love to do :)
tomorrow me and Shai have to go to fram, number 1, go to SMOC to find out about G.E.D. program for Shai. then, number 2, go to Mass Bay, so i can get catalog, want to makeup Microbiology :) have to get in touch with MassRehab, who gives financial help for schooling to disabled folk, such as me.
MUST CALL THEM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! k, gtg, my lil cooker/chef is almost done, sweetest gurl ever, mommie's loving chef. i love that she loves to cook and bake :)
k, signing off now....let's see, happy pics :)))
damn, that one's supposed to be animated....
still LOVE music+PINK :) well, try, try again :)))
k, even tho she's crying, this is a very special pic :)
not only is she "Chic",
but one can also tell she is;
Loving and Kind, and... especially Vulnerable.
very Endearing.
here is an absolutely amazzzing
Beautiful Ethereal Goddess
with
Super-Long Hair!!
what she is wearing would most def fall into the category of
"GOSSAMER"
STUNNING! AMAZING!
a verrry, very special pixie cloud :)
LUVIT!
absolutely MUST love that crown/tiara :)))))
can't get the exact correct sz for this.
still...isn't she perfection??
what shade/hue purple would you call that?
hmm, i wonder how many dif; tints, colors, hues we could do?
loL....i am sooo currayzee :O next one down, LOVELY shade of blue <3
i want to name her.
um, Taylor Syrinda? (Syrinda is pn; suh-RIN-duh)...
or Brinley Amelie? (Amelie is pn; AH-muh-LEE).
we'll figure it out :)
Precious Cutie, lil brown-eyed Dollie :)
want to use her as my "sig".
PURPLE used to be my #1 Fave,
until PINK came along and took over :)
however! this shade of purple is incredible.
k, the end~
