Dear Lord, where is my Blogspot site? I've lost it & need your help

let's see what happens.......it's because I change my name too many times and don't keep track....

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This site has such Lovely wedding dresses/Gowns i am in complete AWE!! thank you, and Bless You!



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new cursor.... i hope. fam(ily) update...new namie

k, i just attempted to change my cursor to a special one. it's supposed to look like a slowly swirling purple flower. i hope it works.

i also want to do some other work here. i need to change my divider. i "out-grew" my old name (Jiinxsay). i've been trying for years to find thee perfect namie for mee :)
Birthname = Laura Elizabeth Mahoney
Adopted = Alice Elizabeth Sanders
nn (nickname) thru-out teens = Al
friend Bridget christened me = Ali  in 1981.
in 2005 i changed sp to = Aly. i did this because all those years so many ppl pn-(pronounced) it - ah-LEE instead of AL-lee. i felt related to Muhammed Ali. no one ever understood.
so i began searching for a new name altogether, as i felt that being a "Sanders" meant nothing to mee, since Beloved dad passed away in 1998.

and somewhat of a 'divorce' from mom was going to be a cathartic move. she's always been a cold, un-loving fake, stuck-up, playing the perfect role of the Harvard Professor's wife. plus her "better-than" attitude also came from being a Radcliffe grad. i remember being FOUR and thinking she didn't love me. the most dysfunctional part is that she allows my younger sister Jeanne rule her in an abusive, controlling manner. Jeanne vowed decades ago that she was going to become executor of the will & that she would cut Bill (the middle child of the 3 of us) OUT of the will. Ms. i run the family finances.
so, she did it. she even got a Masters Degree, to please mom AND to become a CPA, therefore she could manage money. dad wanted my cousin to become executor but mother was spineless.
 i just hope she doesn't cut me out either. we have a love/hate relationship. we're on the 'outs' now. i was extremely jealous when she got a job in MY Beloved MAINE :(  i've wanted to go back there and stay forever. but the other side of mee  is proud and sometimes i even brag (as i used to do about both my parents), because she is now the "Senior Tax Manager" for LL Bean! i really AM proud of that.
 i wish we were on the 'ins' so i could go up and see the house she had built. my health is bad and i just wish we were close.
 my brother is "out" as far as i'm concerned. no long story, suffice it to say, he's against mee being on disability and that Republican asshole attitude he displayed the last time we spoke hurt mee so bad it was the last time we spoke.

however! there IS a silver lining to this fam(ily) story!
 i had found my birthmom in 1995. i have a brother & sister (they have a dif dad,with major superior genes!) Rob&Beth. we all had fone relationships. she managed to come out from San Diego in  Nov 2002  and met mee & my children, it was wonderful :)
 very sad that she died april 5, 2007, the day before my birthday. i had since then lost touch with brother Rob. then with Beth.
but me and my Bethie Blossom have since re-connected on facebook :)  i am simply currayzee 'bout my baby sissy!! <3

wOw, i didn't mean to go on like this. ppl probably get annoyed at my strange spellings of certain words; mee instead of me, ppl 'stead of people, pn; 'stead of pronounce-that one's due to my large participation in the baby name forums. umm wut else?  nn - nickname, mn-middle name. so forgive my rebellious streak.

k, i guess i am going to try the 'favicon' idea....oh ya, and a new div.

Bless you, all my bloggie Beloveds <3

<3 Mia-Bohème

sick :(

dayyum pancreas is in bad shape. gonna end up emerg surg. and my birthday is 2moro. god help mee

wow

i canNOT believe i've been gone from here since april! i rly have slacked this yr. sad, but can't control some things.

 joined "sparkling Neko's World's Blog, GORGEOUS, GLORIOUS, eye candy for my Soul <3

k, gtg fly. will try to post more. happy holiday season <3

Baby Names Made Easy: The Complete Reverse-Dictionary of Baby Names | Amanda Barden

Baby Names Made Easy: The Complete Reverse-Dictionary of Baby Names | Amanda Barden

wOw rly?????

sick in hospital, get home & 1/2 my pictures on left hand side of my blogger are GONE. what on earth does that even mean??????

iaahave2testthis from so called smart fone

eeeee  oh ok now its working. but who knos how long its impossible2tell and afraid2use punctuation for fear it will end post i made huge mistake by letting my chad fool w this fone and do factory reset humungous irperable    irepairable   damage2fon not2mention lost allll bookmarksn k will need2continue this post 2moro to update my beloveds here  ilu   jiinx

i AM sooo remiss!

i realize that i am remiss in my blogging here. i've not been blogging on Lj either. not doin much of anything online past few days. kind of just "hunkerin' down" like i'm trying to survive some kind of storm or sumthin....if i had to guess, i would point the finger at "Type 2 Bipolar" depression... in other words, it doesn't matter that i am on Prozac AND Seroquel, nothing makes me 100% :(   and with BOTH Hallow dances comin up THIS sat and NEXT fri, i am no where NEAR prepared and TOTALLY ready to blow them BOTH off :(  my hair is in such a wretched state of "desperately over-due for trim & foil" :(  broke, can't. rena's friend Andii was gonna do it, but i don't even have the ten for haircolor....so, if nothing happens to my hair between now & sat, there is NOOOOO way i am going! the pics from 2 yrs ago came out all bad cept for ONE, which i will put up here. my wispies, that hang down from my ponytails, somehow, became wretched & destroyed!! i think when i had Margaret color them PINK this summer, which lasted all of 3 days! must have destroyed them, because they were longer in this pic than they are NOW 2 yrs later :O

k, that's all i can do for now, black depression sucks me back into just watching tv....


<3 Jiinx~

~me...Oct. 2008

why cant i blog from ceL? cant get box2highlight :( maybe try2put in pic bumn

loooooooo howd i do that ahhh cant use punctuation from my cel eww cant even use capitals time 2 go seek goog blogspot help now. oh i guess a period is doable k off 2 netbook 2 find out if app avail luv havn smart fone. funnest thing since idk wen lol. pullin another allnighter. niteynite beloveds......pink sugah jiinx lovez u all.

wow, i haven't posted in how long???????

i feel wretchedly guilty! however, i used my Lj for my really personal, "negative-nancy" moments & things of that nature. i'm not sure how much i have shared here, re; my mental frailties, but i want this journal to be more about; beauty, Love, things i find interesting on the internet or in life :)


i actually just came here to re-make my blog public, (no more stalk threat), and to find out my 'open id url' to post on Aesthetic....oh darn, i can't read her tab w/out losing this one :O

i have not forgotten any of you, my Beloveds, i am still here....just a lil "over-focused" on Lj. AND! i have just discovered "Tumblr" and "We Heart It", both currayzee beautiful sites <3 especially if you are a "pic princesse" like me, as well as one who loves to make new layouts!!

~all my Love, Jiinxsay aka Jiinx aka pink sugah jiinx ;)

here's just a lil somethin i found on Tumblr, theee most amazing pics on the web!! actually most of the pics on "we heart it" are copied & "reposted" or "reblogged" FROM Tumblr, confusing? iLu~

aahhhhhmazing color!

i Love pics of allll Angels<3

a dream cel look for me<3

a Japanese style, i think it's spelled Gyaru ??

my ABSOLUTE dream cel cover, even tho it's not a phone<3

Love the sheerness / gauzyness of this amazing dress!

i dream of having long wavy hair like this. i don't even know where to BUY hair like this :O

i have clipons w/the big clip, but they're not as luxurious, wavy, swirly & special as this<3

couldn't help myself w/this one! 

my 3 fav website/layout colors; black, white, & pink (light or magenta, either will do :)

i wish i knew where to get lovely wigs / hair like this, it's soooo fantastically fantasy :)

this is SUCHHHH an amazing picture, i am just in awe<3

 

~just the sweetest, cutest, most beautiful of the "Lolita" pics<3

a lovely PINK "Gyarustyle" look, lordy, i am currayzee for PINK<3

i used to collect tiny teasets, till the loss of my life....

when losing my storage in 2000, i lost everything.

these colors are stunning<3

mmmmm, sooo yummerzz<3

WOWWW!~ glorified CANDYYY!!! i've def seen & had this before<3

lordy! got so tired i went to bed, now it's 24 hrs later :O

I luv ice cream! keychains from Zazzle.com

I luv ice cream! keychains from Zazzle.com


this is ahhhmaaazzzinnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!! luvsit<3

Can people hack into webcams and see you while the camera is in use if so how can you prevent it?

Can people hack into webcams and see you while the camera is in use if so how can you prevent it?


ahhhh, simply charming....makes me long for the "Little House on the Prairie" pioneer days, {heavy sigh}.

any thoughts?

Double Victorian Skeleton Key Necklace - $60.00 : RockLove Jewelry

Double Victorian Skeleton Key Necklace - $60.00 : RockLove Jewelry


absolutely GLORIOUS!! i am soooo in Love with Skeleton Keys :)
have a folder dedicated to them in my pics folder!
i find them on google, perhaps i will check photobucket as well!

i have a special few skel keys that have an interesting story behind them ;)
will follow up on that soon. must head back to google & continue to save pics
of these glorious Victorian keys!

apologies for neglecting this journal!!! have been working on my Lj.
had to make this journal private due to a somewhat stalkative situation : \

much Love to all my Beloved Gurls here on Blogger <3 x 1000000, or rather, infinity!!

muahhzzz <3

eww, so overrr the name game :O eye infection :(

wow, after being super in love w/my brand new "Hard Candy" super sxy makeup, i got an eye infection! i know it wasn't from that. i had just finished up applying it & found an old "powder shadow" that has like 3 shades of blue, darker to lighter, then going into silver :) so....thinking i'm the pimp makeup queen, i swipe my finger along like 4 colors and slap it on, same with other side. looked great! had shimmer plus the "Hard Candy" is glitter in spades!!!!!! so no makeup up yest and tonight i just put on 8 yr old erythro  eye gel, script of course, lol. so miss puffy eyes isn't goin NO where :(  don't feel secure these days, going out w/out being madeup.....wore shades today/yest, but today supposed to rain, so what to do?

i have been remiss in my blogging here. i've been creating. for some reason i create new journals & enjoy playing w/the CSS & decorating & making them eye-candy for meeee :) too bad i can't capitalize on that. my religion doesn't allow Capitalism. my religion being that of the disabled, lol.... i've always known i was in the wrong country. shoulda been born in Canada :)

lmao, i'm running in the OPPOSITE direction, NOT towards this bummer of a country :(
heavy sigh.....when i was little i never would've thought i would feel like this now.

not keeping up w posting! ------ name-change

i am sooo sorry, i have been neglectful here. i desperately NEED to find a "community" "group" or such, maybe here or blog-frog, or blogged, re: NAME CHANGE!! i want to finalize this! i'm over the insanity of trying to fit in all the names i feel best describe me, as well as fam(ily) tributes :O

i absolutely canNOT use Elizabeth. here's the dilemma, ie; bummer about NOT using it;

1) it was my birth middle name
2) it was my adopted middle name (no, they didn't know it had been birth mn)
3) my Beloved birthmom (mami')'s mn was Elizabeth!
4) my Beloved birthsister's FIRST name is Elizabeth :)
5) in my adoptive fam, my mother's aunt Elizabeth was the "matriarch" of the fam,
    ie; i am named for her.
6) my step-cousin's first name is Elizabeth
7) my former "sis-in-law"'s first name is Elizabeth
8) i was born at St. Elizabeth's Hospital in Brighton/Boston.
9) i have soooo many friends who's mn's are Elizabeth!
10) i am quite certain there are other Elizabeth names in my adoptive fam,
    perhaps mom will show me that currayzee "fam tree" she did some yrs ago.


what a quandry!! conundrin? not sure bout THAT being correct. alas, what to do?

THEN! wanting a tribute to mami's first name; Joan-Marie, i found Shivon, a Gaelic form that relates to! amazingly; Joan, John, Jane, Jo and Jeanne! that tribute would include;

1) mami's first name = JOAN
2) Beloved adopted dad's first name (he went by J. Lyell tho) = JOHN
3. adopted mom's name = (Mary) JANE
4) my fave uncle, who died young, Joe = JO
4) my adopted sister (who hates me)'s name = JEANNE

how can i ignore THAT coincidence??? so Shivon is def in. that works THAT issue out, easy, awes.

i have a theory on Elizabeth. have tried ev single spin-off, nothing works for me...came up with Elixia. it is an extremely unusual name, has several meanings, not to mention i can basically pick my spelling, this IS america afterall! if i throw a "Z" in there, perhaps; Elixzya, or some such similar, that would suffice. i have come to the conclusion that THAT is the "E" name i will use. Elixza....hmm... maybe...


my Beloved first name, Jiinxsay, ie;  jinx, in Latin means GOODLUCK CHARM, NOT bad luck! and Elixia means "elixir" you know, something that makes you feel good/better, ie; God, me, sunshine, oceans, sunsets, etc. may seem silly to some.
i have only God and myself to please here. the tribute to Fam members is all my idea,
i'm sure they won't even care/acknowledge it....again, only God & me matter<3


unfortunately i don't "get" to please my birthmom "Mami'", as she passed away April 5, 2007 :(
but i WILL pay my tribute to HER +

you see, this whole thing has me going back&forth!....
so; Jiinxsay Lee Shivon (for DAD's initials JLS), STILL trying to come up with a million mn's-(middle names) to have JLS on new birth certif/name change record. NO, my last name will NOT start with "S", like ours. that era is OVA. the name Sanders died October 7, 1998 with the passing of my Beloved dad, Prof. J. Lyell Sanders +

thanks to my wonderful FB friend Kae Whild, i FOUND my perfect last name :) so in the middle of Jiinxsay Lee Whild, we have like 9-14 potential mn's!!! how to narrow it down? what to do? will HAVE to go back to "nameberry" and "babyhold" forums to get my gurls' input! Jiinxsay Lee Shivon is a good starting point tho. i am 100% committed to having beloved dad's initials :) JLS, my fav initials on the planet, should def have them inked on me! will talk about "tattoo for dad" later.....

have sooo many fantasy tat's related to beloved dad, can't use them tho, cuz i know on ME, it would look sleazy :(  other gurls, esp; suicide gurls, look great with all of them, but i just can't do it. i have my angel wings on my back :)
"Angel" being another name i want on my long list of namiiez :)


guess i should just POST this! was looking for specific stencil tattoo that i want, can't find :(
merry monday :)

there it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wannit, will put dad's initials under heart, between wings :)
don't know WHERE on ME to ink it :O

to fill my wings in, all the way to this degree :)

not for my hipbone, just LOVE the stencil pencil type tats :)

most precious angel tat!

wOw, i'm missing a TON of tat pics :(  i may not have transferred all my fave tat folders from the big laptop, but i KNO i have em up on FB. if i EVER get the patience to go there, i'll re-copy them. i believe i'm going to make a special 3rd page on my Blogger, with pics of lovely tats i want or otherwise Love :)

peace&Love, gtg for now....tired.

k, changed my mind

as a typical woman does :)
decided i'm not going to keep the turquoise.....
i started this blog thinking "pink & black",
so why change it now?
i think i was just trying to incorporate my Lj colors.
no need. besides, turquoise looks better as background on Lj,
than it does at text on Blogger :)
alas.....back to the drawing board!!!
i am, however, very pleased with the FONT!!
i'm still tweaking the dif shades/hues of pink,
to make it right. sidebar title pink is too light.
will work on that as well. but for now,
need to take a break, watch some tv.
i just LOVE other bloggers here on Blogger!
ev time i look for something, i branch off
into a million tabs of Blogger sites, it's hilarious!
as i read their's, i click on one of their links,
and so on! then find myself with too many tabs goin ;)
k, signing off. oh ya, that's another issue altogether!
gotta do something about my "sig"....not happy with it.
k, peace for now. LOVE to all who may read this.
pray, pray, pray!!!!!!
or maybe, just maybe, God DOES love me,
and as Courtney says, "walk with the King".
i will try to be worthy <3
God Bless All my Beloved Blogger friends in blog-land!

k. that took just about all night to do

for now i am satisfied. will work on it more later, 

do some more adjusting to the pinks.

must get some sleepy time now. love my pinkie and turquoise, 

somewhat like livejournal, cept wayyy dif :)

niteynite!

really want this font baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddd

Princesse, Ballerina, Ice Skater, Angel, Baybiie

oh my good God, i HURT :(

went to Beth Israel today, to see Urologist and his fabulous assistant NP Jodie, luvluvluv her!!!!!!
just a reg checkup. dr said he would schedule mag-3 for around 3 months from now....no fukn wayyyy! i am in agony NOWWWWWWWWWWWW.................so it's gonna be way sooner rather than later!! had to take extra pain pills, don't like to break rules. should be at ER to get a shot for pain. not doing that. hate doing that. short-term solution. so!
gonna call back tomorrow!!! and tell them how bad it was tonight and see if i can get in sooner! what am i gonna do? he said when he did my right kidney 2.5 yrs ago, it was "really complicated", not good :( i have endless "abherrant arteries", just googled UPJ obstruction and wish i had researched beFORE appt, to ask him if i had "crossed vessels", which makes surgery, even laporoscopic, extremely dangerous, due to possibility of "bleeding out"..........he suggested removing the left one, due to pain, life-long probs, it was congenital defect. i said, NO thx. ---heavy heavy sigh---- so i must set alarm on cel fone to call them tomorrow.
time spent with mom today was really special. glad our relationship is evolving into this :)  she drove INto boston, i drove OUT, lol...too scared to do it myself...stopped at sud bank and she deposited hundreds in my account, due to meds not recently being covered  by my welfare insurance. thx mom. cel fone back on. thank goodness. oh people, please PLEASE PLEASE!!! pray for me :(   i am in such horrible pain, heating pad helps, narcotics not doing alot. pain is in EXACT spot it was for the first 18 yrs of my life :(  also feel nauseated, result of severe pain) and my sweet Shainelle is making special dinner tonight, instant Hungry Jack tatos, peas to mix in for me :) corn for her :) i hope to high heaven i can actually EAT. may take nother pill :(((( GOD PLZ HELP ME, I AM WORTHY OF YOUR LOVE AND CARE. i know you can't remove this pain, just help me to deal, or get into my web designing mode, to get my mind off it :) it's a hobby that i love to do :)
tomorrow me and Shai have to go to fram, number 1, go to SMOC to find out about G.E.D. program for Shai. then, number 2, go to Mass Bay, so i can get catalog, want to makeup Microbiology :) have to get in touch with MassRehab, who gives financial help for schooling to disabled folk, such as me.
MUST CALL THEM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! k, gtg, my lil cooker/chef is almost done, sweetest gurl ever, mommie's loving chef. i love that she loves to cook and bake :)

k, signing off now....let's see, happy pics :)))

damn, that one's supposed to be animated....

still LOVE music+PINK :) well, try, try again :)))

k, even tho she's crying, this is a very special pic :)

not only is she "Chic", 

but one can also tell she is; 

Loving and Kind, and... especially Vulnerable.

very Endearing.

here is an absolutely amazzzing

Beautiful Ethereal Goddess 

with 

Super-Long Hair!! 

what she is wearing would most def fall into the category of 

"GOSSAMER"  

STUNNING! AMAZING!

a verrry, very special pixie cloud :) 

LUVIT! 

absolutely MUST love that crown/tiara :)))))

can't get the exact correct sz for this. 

still...isn't she perfection?? 

what shade/hue purple would you call that?

hmm, i wonder how many dif; tints, colors, hues we could do? 

loL....i am sooo currayzee :O  next one down, LOVELY shade of blue <3

i want to name her.

um, Taylor Syrinda? (Syrinda is pn; suh-RIN-duh)... 

or Brinley Amelie? (Amelie is pn; AH-muh-LEE).

we'll figure it out :)

Precious Cutie, lil brown-eyed Dollie :)

want to use her as my "sig".

PURPLE used to be my #1 Fave,

until PINK came along and took over :)

however! this shade of purple is incredible.

k, the end~