another day, another issue

hmmm, how to deal with this??? daddy/dana's wife Tanya is bitching to him that he talked to me 5x yest, so she's keeping tabs on his cel action, she's looking at his internet history online, she wants BOTH Chad AND Shianne OUT, and wants to get a 1 bedroom apt. she's wearing him down and i feel like i should call her and assuage her worries. i consider him the "pack leader of our family", he's the rock, the one who always knows what to do. now that she is taking a 6 month break from working she's got too much time on her hands and is super focused on controlling him, he's being wimpy about it, i can't imagine him in that role....alas...i am at a loss as to what to do!! i txtd rena to ask her advice, awaiting her response.
i ended up going to the 5:30 mtg last night, it was AWESome :) i never know why i hold back on mtgs, i suppose the negative in me thinks i don't deserve the good. well, if i can get rid of some of this pain, i WILL go to the noontime. Serenity called me back before the mtg and told me she was goin. then she gave me some awesome news!!! Mona the meanie is moving to Washington State :O wow! that's a load off MY mind!!! she has been mean to sooooooo many women in AA it's un-countable!!! so that alleviates alot of my fear about going to mtgs, as last month she was witchy to me. right after i spoke about being a "gurly-gurl" and all that goes with that, she chimed in and said, "well i'm NOT a gurly-gurl, getting clean isn't a pretty thing". 6 yrs ago she came up to me and said, "wow, it looks like SOMEone spent alot of time in front of the mirror", because i had glitter on my chest, wow! that night she was also wretched to my rena, big mistake, rena fumigated then split. soo, to end that on a pos note, GOD Bless Mona on her travel and may she be happy in the beautiful northwest, amen.
i also ate last night, was "quillin' like a villain", but i hadn't eaten anything substantial in days... i was 98 lbs last monday, this wk i weigh in on friday and wanted to be an even 95 lbs for the summer. i noticed my chest bones really look fab when i get to 96, approx where i am now :)
toDAY is DEF gonna be a "sun-worshipping" day....hmm, may have to leave noontime early, haha, that's funny, leaving an AA mtg to go home and feed aNOTHER addiction, lol, too funny :)
k, gtg to "TCBOTB" and make sure i have gotten ev thing out of their collection that i have. then they have a forum, where ppl go to "show off" their blogs", i want to do that at some point, but not yet :) Melissa from "Operation Nice" told me there's a page you can go to that shows you how to get rid of the bar at the top, although i'm afraid if i do that, how do i click on "new post" and "customize", etc??? :O i'll have to go to the almighty Nitecruzr, HE will most DEF have the answer to THAT one :))) savior of all that is Blogger he is :)
k, signing off for now. let me leave you with some color!!!