didn't get much accomplished when you sum up the day in an all-encompassing way. small trip to w-greens, got baby boy card for Marcie and Roy, could NOT find a mother's day card for my own mother, way too difficult dynamic, bummer....also couldn't find a card for aunt Alice-(all mom's Radcliffe friends, class of '52, i grew up calling 'aunt'), she has cancer, and has gone home to die. mom won't let me see her, so i need to find a card stat! a get well card is not appropriate, there was even a "fighting cancer" card, also inappropriate, i just need to go to a REAL card store for these 2 cards....then i got that depressive/insecure feeling and decided i needed something PINK to lift my spirits...i proceeded to go thru almost alll the aisles at lil ole walgreens and found a pair of super fuzzy PINK sockie type thingies that i already have a ton of. i also got a pair of PINK ballet-looking type slippers, like i REALLY need slippers, after buying THREE pairs @ wallyworld this week :O i was actually WEARING my old fuzzy PINK slippers AT walgreens, i seem to do that often, when i'm going to w-greens, dunks to meet rena, walmart, don't know why...comfort factor i guess. so i got the ballet-type slippers. they remind me of my ACTUAL ballet slippers :) i have 3? pair, maybe 4. i was taking lessons back in fall '08. first came the pink canvas ones, then i got black leather ones, and when i joined classes i had to get pink leather ones. i got that pair at shop in Milford, as well as alot of "ballet gear", which i LOVE and am not sorry for laying out that amount of money for. the other pairs i got online at "All About Dance" :) i love how they send me a quarterly magazine in the mail :) i also enjoy the black ABT (American Ballet Theatre) ballet shorts, which double as my new "sun-worshipping monkey suit". so i have 2 leotards, one reg black, one satin black, 2 short blk sweaters, a few short skirts, see-thru ballet style, a pair of amazing pink....well, you can't even call them leg warmers because they go from ankle to top of thighs :) sweater material, i LOVE them :) lastly, i got a pair of ballet warm-up pants, multi-colored pastel. they double as "ice-skating" gear as well. oh how i wish they had had a black xs pair that day :( i get some weird looks from wearing those pants, lol.....then, for halloween '08, i got a pink tutu, way too tutu-ish, sticks straight out, not into it, but wore it anyways....i'm pretty sure that covers all of my ballet gear. i gathered some ballet skirts; lavender, pink, etc from rena. she receives alot of goodies in her bbsitting world of rich ppl. i have profitted massively from that. the pink shag rug, tons of jewelry, i can't even remember what else, but ev time Isabelle gets her room done-over, i profit :) we are supposed to receive a maroon sectional couch, don't know what the status of that is at this time. i will happily take that :) i love sectional couches and have wanted one for quite some time.
wOw, am i rambling or what? hmm, can't seem to stay on topic, BPD? or BPD? lol, BPD1 really stands for Borderline Personality Disorder, but i also have bipolar type 2, so that could be construed as BPD also, so for future reference, we will signify the difference by calling the bipolar BPD2. oy-veyyy... don't feel like listing ev single mental and physical frailty i have. i DID notice something earlier and of course my BPD kicked in and my feelings were hurt :( i have this "operation nice" badge on my blog page and when you click on it, it brings you to THAT blog page. it's a site about being nice. i like it alot :) she also has a list of bloggers who have her badge up on their blogs. i emailed her quite a while ago and i'm still not on the list....i got to thinking that perhaps she may find my blog inappropriate, as it does not focus 100% on 'being nice'. i DO try my darndest to be kind in this world. i do understand why i'm not listed. i blog about ALL my feelings, experiences, struggles, frailties, etc. no matter my non-listing, i will keep her badge because i DO want anyone who looks at MY blog, to click on her badge and go see HER site, cuz it really IS neat :) i only wish i was "normal" and had a "nice" blog, or one of the many i have seen that focuses on; shabby chic, all sorts of DIY special project-talented ppl sharing their knowledge, i'm just me. i have spent sooooo many hrs reading blogger help pgs, many dif authors, trying to create the best, prettiest blog i can. beCAUSE i cannot switch to "Blogger in Draft", i can't get the full eye-candy effect. it scares me, that i might go back to my livejournal, which is sooooo amazingly beautiful and PINK, but alas...that blog is just for my ana mind. so....same with my xangzie blog. when i create these blogs i concentrate much more of the design and look of them. i swear my LJ and xangz HAVE to be one of the prettiest in each category :) hmmm....maybe i'll sign off here, and go be unhealthy mentally and hang-out on LJ for a while. my xangz paid subscrip is expired, so it's missing the java part, which will come back as soon as i throw down $15....i just haven't spent any time there so i didn't see a reason to pay right now. my LJ is paid till....hmmm, i forget, but THAT i won't let lapse. i LOVE that blog, it really IS the most beautiful place i own, besides my freeweb account.
~Jiinxsay Lee Princesse Elixia Mystica Jadenne Whild signing off for now :)
ps~ i pray ev one is either sleeping peacefully or living happily :)
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