Mia-Bohème: wOw

and help comes in M.A.N.Y. forms!!! once again God steps in!! although reflecting after tha fact made me come to a certain conclusion, will discuss that at end of this entry.
homer called at 7:15pm, we went to Walmart together. it was fun!! we were there for like 2 hrs :O at first he gave me cash, then we shopped, at the end i paid for both our food w/my food stamps, he paid for ALL the other things w/HIS money, not asking me for tha cash he gave me at the beginning. these are tha wonderful things i got :) an awesome 6-tiered pink bead necklace, it's amazing, dif shades of lighter pink :) a beautiful "tied-together" 3 black bracelet bracelet, tied w/a bow. it's soo beautiful and i can't believe it was $10 :O umm, oh yaaa, the most important thing, i had been looking for! 2 5-paks of toe rings!!! one has black & silver, the other has magenta and silver! the exact same colors as my many bracelets i've been wearing for months! black and silver on the left arm, magenta/pink and silver on tha right :) the toe rings match perfectly. then, in my ring drawer of my jewelry box i found 2 cheapie rings that expand enough to put both on each big toe, so now i have all ten toes B.E.J.E.W.E.L.L.E.D. :))) i do that ev spring. black nail polish on my toes ALWAYS. so now my feet are garnished!! need ankle bracelets tho. oh ya, a pink cel fone holder so i can carry it on my wrist, which i HAVE been carrying it in my hand lately, not wanting to use tha clip and mess up my look by clipping it to my leggings. so that is taken care of. lastly, i got a clearance magenta hoodie :) i'm sooo happy, i am absolutely addicted to shopping for pretty things and clothing!! on tha way home we stopped and he got me 2 paks of marlboro 100s, again, NOT asking me for any of tha money he had given me. i kept bringing it up too, but he said no. so!! after tha fact i got to thinkin!! swifty, takes me a while to catch on, a lil slow on the uptake, bummer, cuz now i'm concerned. here's tha thing. we've been broken up 5 yrs now and have developed a great friendship in the past 18 months or so....here's my dilemma!! all of a sudden i thought to myself, hey! when homer likes a gurl, he buys her things, diamond earring, cocaine, whatever the hell these horrible USER gurls are into. so now i'm left wondering......is he feeling something MORE than friendship for me now?? at the very end, he said, get 4 or 5 bags of dirty laundry together and i'll take you in tha next few days :O can't tomorrow cuz he's got a "buzzie" (side job of cutting down trees), but in next few days. i can't allow him to do that for me......especially since i DO have a laundry card for here and it DOES have $$ on it, i am just unABLE to do laundry at this time :( not to even mention that on tha 16th he gave me a hundred dollar bill cuz they had shut my cel off on tha 10th. so, wow, he's throwing down wayyyyy too much money on me! he's takin home a thousand dollars a week right now, work is obv good/great, but i HAVE to remember I AM NOTTT HIS RESPONSIBILITY!! i used to think it was "guilt" money, as he was brutally abusvie, verbally and emotionally. he IS mentally ill, bipolar, hardcore, hearing voices and still functions better than i do!!!! so i figured "guilt $$", now i'm thinkin "like $$$".....how on earth am i going to fix this? i would never EVERRRRRRRRRRRR go back out w/him, we are wayyy better as friends!!! i love him as my friend, but that's as far as it goes. so i hope he doesn't get hurt :( i feel wretched and guilty and selfish and just a horrible person all around....i am DEF going to church w/Jules tomorrow am. even tho i am NOT into born again christianism, too evangelical for me. but alas, i don't see any catholics offering me a ride to church, so i will go w/her and pray and pray that God will forgive me as i now feel as if i've taken advantage of homer :(
i s'pose i should sign off as i STILL have not done tha "name game"...and that DOES need to be addressed!! i did fix a few glitches w/this blog tho and i'm super excited about it :))) i DID find in settings, how to set the darn thing to east coast, which now makes all my prev posts 3 hrs later than they should be :O good glory!!! and i noticed if you "edit" a post, it becomes the top post, or most recent, so i can't go back and change the times on all of them because that will mess up the order in which they've been posted, arrrgh, lololol....k, time for a spiritually uplifting pic, quote, somethin.....going to search now :)